this morning will definitely be mine, I have the desire to live, and to squeeze the best out of this morning and day…

Today I realise that life is not to be influenced by others, and even though everything is moving in the direction of my departure, I know that life will be there too. and maybe I’m getting my hopes up about the whole leaving thing, but I need it, I need to know that there is an alternative waiting for me somewhere, an alternative to all these unpredictable and inadequate people….

I know that this morning will be mine, and I will try to make the others mine. And now I am convinced that everything depends on my will to live…

and so be it