my world is different

my world is different, illness and health. schizophrenia and remission, everything is nearby.
my life in this house has become more fragile than ever, so much is at stake for my future life and the peace that I am trying so hard to regain.
my desire is not to focus on myself, but to discover what is important and mine, so that I can draw hope and peace from life.

my world is different, full of self-pity and anxiety which, I realize, leads nowhere, and looking at myself does not satisfy me… I know that I will fall, but I will be able to get up, because the environment will not oppress me, finally I will be able to free myself…..

many more life lessons await me, I will not apologize, but I will simply live